Monday, March 26, 2007
wow, what an eye opener. what a weekend. i really need to stop doing things just for credit and do them in the eyes of God instead knowing that he knows what went into things and He will appreciate it. I need to stop looking for recognition. and I need to stop relying on the people who i thought i could depend on.
haha, thanks mike and kayce! :)
9:13 AM
Monday, March 19, 2007
im no longer special to the world. im not a unique person. I don't stand out. i don't feel like anyone cares significantly about me anymore. what am i now?
10:09 PM
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
let's revive this! after 3/4 of a year of non blogging, i have to say i do miss it! broadcasting to the world what i do everyday was sorta fun! although posts will now be more mature and meaningful. haha, maybe not.
Im feeling very emo lately. Just a surreal feeling of overwhelming burdens that i feel i have to take care of but i don't know where to start. Just too much to think about, too much to endure and too much to do is enough to drive me insane! Plus this side thought of learning how to trust. I really don't know how to trust anymore. It's been shattered once and i'm finding it hard to just let go. weird.... trusting GOD seems like an impossible task.
anyways, welcome back blog!
8:17 PM
Saturday, August 05, 2006
If we could open a new world
And let the old one close
If you could be someone else
But you under new clothes.
And we could let it all go
And pretend we're falling in love again
And I won't have to know
That it is you because it won't be will it?
You can ask me what you want
The way you used to
And I won't bottle anything up
Cause I won't know you.
And you can open even more parts of me
That you haven't yet.
And all the stuff we had before,
We can finally forget.
This is the only thing I can think to do
If only I can re-create
Another you.
If only I can pretend that you were someone else
And save myself from danger
Only you can guess.
Find me in the other place
And you be someone else.
I need you somehow somewhere.
Release me from myself.
11:15 PM
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
RELOCATED!!
6:05 PM
Sunday, July 23, 2006
exuberant : filled with or characterized by a lively energy or excitement
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I am happy.
6:08 PM
Sunday, July 09, 2006
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.
10:26 PM
Thursday, June 29, 2006
I am careful not to confuse excellence with perfection.
Excellence, I can reach for;
Perfection, is God's business.
Michael J. Fox
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The weather is dismal. Its the kind of weather where you just want to curl up in your bed with a good book and hot chocolate. And that my friends is exactly what I am going to do tonight.
2:56 PM
Sunday, June 18, 2006
i feel like im losing the one that I love most. over what? my inhibited consciousness? my overwhelming insecuredness that i can't seem to get over? getting my life back is a lot harder than i could ever imagine and its taking a toll on me and him. sometimes i feel like we can't even recover. then what? is it over? all that... over? i refuse to accept it.. but sometimes reality hits me like a punch in the face. and the truth of the matter is, i don't think im ready for it. even though it will inevitably happen.
5:33 PM