Wednesday, March 31, 2004
i fell of the computer chair yesterday.. those stupid rolly things... they made me roll off the chair and gave me a bruise on my hand!!!! it was pretty funny though... skating was alright.. clean solos! and i did all triples! cheated.. but WHO CARES!!! it was fun... today.. umm.. nothing special.. gelly, me and paully have our happy dance now!!! we do something good and we do our happy dance! , we do something bad and its patty poo pants! heehee.. poor patty.. hope he's ok.. his fall looked like it really hurt and he really did feel pain for once.. never saw him cry before.. but even strong boys cry sometimes.. and believe me, patty's strong!!!! WE LOVE YOU PATTY! piano sucked as usual and personal training was alright.. my muscles didn't hurt but my knuckles did for some reason.. i really really need a massage! in desperate need for one!!! herm.. what else.. nothing ... field trip tomorrow! hope i don't fall asleep!
10:48 PM
Monday, March 29, 2004
when I was doing my devotions today, the book I was reading had this poem at the end of the section, and it made me teary to think that Jesus really endured vast amounts of pain that no man could've ever survived now, and he did it all for us. Needless to say, I ended up teary-eyed. See for yourself
The diadem of pain
which sliced your gentle face
three spikes piercing flesh and wood
to hold you in your place.
The need for blood I understand
Your sacrifice I embrace
But the bitter sponge, the cutting spear,
the spit upon your face?
Did it have to be a cross?
Did not a kinder death exist
than six hours hanging between life and death,
all spurred by a betrayer's kiss?
"Oh, Fahter," you pose,
heart-stilled at what could be,
"I'm sorry to ask, but I long to know,
did you do this for me?"
7:32 PM
monday.. ewww.... i hate mondays although i had an extreme surge of energy this morning in school.. not unusual.. school is way to monotonous for me now... everyday is the same old thing.. doing nothing in comp... doing useless stuff in anthro, going out for spare, frantically trying to understand math questions, chitchattering in english and falling asleep in law... the other three are the only ones that I can actually bear... someone needs to change the structure of school before i fall asleep in every class!!!
~ sooo confused about the future... do i want to do a summer program at cambridge or washington? or do i want to do an internship, or do i want to have a summer job in toronto.. plus.. am I going to dorm in university or stay with my mom, where do i want to go for university? stay in canada? US? England??? sooo conflated it stresses me out... at this point.. im leaving it up to God... gonna pray about it instead of worry my head off trying to figure it out..
~ lost an earring.. oh what to do
~ daddy comes in 4 days and I'm scared that he's not going to be too happy with my skating although I feel I have improved a lot and I am very satisfied with my progress
~ Cecilia is with God now.... Please pray for her family and friends as they go through this loss together...
~ Pray for John Lee's family too... although his Dad is with God, the loss of a loved one is hard to bear....
6:29 PM
Sunday, March 28, 2004
schedule of events so that I don't forget:
March 29 - law notes due
March 30 - JAOG due
April 1 - Eng Field Trip
April 2 - Gaven's Party, Islam Unit Test
April 3 -
Dad Comes
April 5 - Doctor's Appt for blood tests, Eng 3rd Conference
April 7 - Drew's Bday
April 8 - Rehearsal for Ice Show
April 9 - 12 Easter Break
April 15 - Rehearsal for Ice Show
April 19 - Ch. 6 JAOG due
April 20 - Jr. Music Concert ( pictures for YB )
April 21 - Founders Day
April 22 - Rehearsal for Ice Show
April 23 - Sig's Bday, Deadline, Track and Field Day (pics for YB)
April 23-24 - Club Competition
April 25 - Ice Show
April 26 - Team Granite
April 28 - 30 - Retreat
There is my plan for the whole month... so i better not forget any of them!!!!!
9:38 PM
Saturday, March 27, 2004
what a weekend.. very very very stressful..... yesterday was crazy.. first I wake up to my mom yelling at me to wake up and to go workout.. then that sparked a whole argument with her which ended up in me not talking to her for the whole day!!!!! getting home.. we still didn't talk then she storms out! for two hours!!!! then i got very panicky since i couldn't reach her!!! it really made me realize that no matter how much heat i have in my head, i still love her and that I will never end up staying mad at her for long.. skating yesterday was awesome!!! clean solo on my first try!!! and mrs. burka didn't even have to watch me in order for me to do my solo! very proud of myself.... then i got all my triples landed, even if they were really really cheated.. i even attempted triple lutzes!!! hahahahaha.. and i never do! herm.. watched honey yesterday too.. again... we walked to tenren's yesterday and I am warning those who read this entry to NEVER ORDER THE HIBISCUS SLUSH!!! its disgusting!!! from the picture it looked pink so i though it would taste like a flower.. but it tasted like PRUNES!!!!! gross.. hahahaha.. im sticking to my normal green tea... it tastes good and gives me good memories as well... skating was sooo incredibly pointless today... i have come to the conclusion that skating on saturdays just don't work out.... im way too lazy to do anything meaningful... ayt.. this is really distracting me from what I really should be doing.. 10 more pages of law notes... adios!!!!!
7:02 PM
Thursday, March 25, 2004
ten pages left!!!!! only ten pages!!! man.. i hate law now.. and this dr. jack kevorkian freaks me out! why did I choose to do my isp on euthanasia.. now i completely changed my viewpoint coz its gross and scary!!! had adrian for training this morning... FINALLY!!! training is always soo much fun coz it actually relaxes me and all my tensions seem to disappear... yesterday i did a d. toe and i twisted my neck somehow and i couldn't move it! i was like a robot!!! pretty funny... herm... skating today was alright.. could've been better... boring boring boring day...
~ man.. my dad doesn't believe in the legitimacy of NSLC! he doesn't believe that its a true conference! man.. i really really wanna go!!! but there are other options too that i could do.. but I WANT TO GO TO NSLC!!! argh...
~still need to do : ten pages of law, math isp, world rel notes, world rel questions, computer tic tac toe....
yearbook day tomorrow!!!!
12:28 AM
Monday, March 22, 2004
g2-ed and proud! haha.. made a couple mistakes though but WHO CARES! I passed! heehee.. now i get to drive around! heehee... mommy's bday tomorrow! can't wait till she sees my gift! i hope she'll like it.. ehehe.. man.. its march break and im procrastinating.. gotta stop that habit! argh!!! its eventually gonna kill me... skating was okay today... it was short so that's good. need to get back in shape!!!!! adios for now.. hw time.. gotta make myself do work
6:10 PM
Thursday, March 18, 2004
went to the doctor today and found out that i might be anemic ... guess i know which side of the family my blood is from.. being an anemic might explain all the dizzy spells and headaches i get when get up in the morning or make any sudden gestures.. also might explain all my nervous breakdowns and stuff... gotta go for blood tests tomorrow for more precise results! hope its nothing serious... SCARY!!!!!!! march break is fab.. skating is actually not bad.. i love it again!!! skating literally revolves around the d. axel and since i have it ok now, then skating is alright. i actually gotta start on my homework soon...
~where are you?
10:35 PM
Wednesday, March 17, 2004
wednesday already!!!!!!!.. bleh.. time flies when you're having fun.. im actually enjoying my march break! skating is soo much fun now.. coz im actually landing my stuff... but I hate when Mrs. burka makes me do the 2 longs in a row! AHHH!!! talk about torture! its sooo exhausting! oh well... monday I went to eaton centre with APPLE!!! havn't seen her in 5 years!!!!!!!!!! man.. she's so different but it was soo much fun reminiscing the times back in Brent Pasig! (KC, if you're reading this, we talked a lot about splash island weekend! those were the times.. miss ya girl!) well, yeah..i got some stuff from aritzia so that was cool.. Tuesday was yearbook Day! I went to school! hahahaha.. fun fun fun.. cept we didn't really get anything done and the weather was HORRIBLE!!!! but fun fun day... saw arthur after a week! haha.. miss all my mexico guys a lot! hahaha.. herm... today was alright...boring as hell.. got my hair trimmed at last! hahahaha..
4:38 PM
Sunday, March 14, 2004
Sunday already!!! the second day of march break! WOHOOO!!!! life is fab when there isn't any school.. march break has already been awesome.. from my point that is... friday was fun!!! absolutely nothing done at school! plus spare instead of accounting.. spares make me happy.. well, skating was fun that day coz i can actually do a double axel now! hahaha.. marche was cool too cept i think i could've eaten a little more... then cousins came over and thats just fun altogether! saturday was cool too.. no one skated cept for me patty, renee, and michelle.. went to marche again with patty and cayli! now there was my normal marche eating... i now have a signature pizza at marche : pesto, mushroom, and bacon! it was soo good plus stealing little bits and bites from other people like patty's rosti, mommy's mussels, karen's pasta, cayli's crepe, and lisa's... i don't think i stole from lisa... oh well.. Jo and I didn't meet.. bo hoo... but wer're GONNA!!!! after lunch we went to mitchells! i love that place... got a new devos book which was good and then shopping at pacific mall.. not exactly shopping.. more like eating! i pigged out!!! hahahahahaha.. meh! cousins' birthday party today! can't wait!!! what a stupid vent...
Gotta do : english outline, law notes, religion notes on JAOG, computer programs
Immediate stuff to get done : apply to NSLC soon!!!, start yoga workout, write thank you cards!
Wants : tna pants again... plus all the other things on my past wants, avocado milk shake...
2:59 PM
Tuesday, March 09, 2004
what a long day..........math eng law, world rel, yearbook, accounting! skating was great today! got my d. axel back!!! finally!!! just needed to change arms and then i landed every single one! hahaha.. got my new music today as well! i love my short program! i really wanna do junior this year so i better work hard!!! team granite today! the nutritionist basically told us what we already knew! food requirements? give me a break! I know what to eat! i know i don't follow it but i know it all! hahaha. the game was alright.. cept i had one really really annoying dude in my group.. i think his name is argent? UGH!!! but other than that.. it was alright. the vests are hideous! but for some reason, everyone wore them out! i found that funny.. even i wore it out! hahahaha.. herm.. sooo much work to do!!!! gotta get started!
stuff to do : math - quiz, english - ISP, law - ISP and DNA testing, world rel - UEA, yearbook - envelopes, accounting - uh.... computer - tic tac toe, anthro - uh..... herm... i seem to be looking forward to something all the time.. yet i don't know what it is! but its kinda like i really want it, but then im not supposed to have it. IANO?? its really weird... herm... next week is march break! can't wait!!!!!
~95%! hahaha...
wants : bubble vest even though its kinda late in the year already! still want one, also sand uggs... really really want them!
11:34 PM
Sunday, March 07, 2004
gr.10's left today for mexico!!! gonna miss my yearbook guys!!! hope they have a really inspirational and lifechanging trip!!!! uh oh.. audition tomorrow! PANIC PANIC PANIC!!! i don't even know my lines that well! oh well.. and what am I supposed to wear!!!!!!! ahh! PANIC PANIC! hahahahaha.. oh well.. its gonna be soo much fun though! herm.. george came over on saturday to do the english project! so funny! now he knows where my silliness comes from!!! i think my cousins scared him.. heehee.. it was a day of laughing.. non stop laughing! heehee.. Today's GELO's Bday!!! HAPPY 20th dude!!! im still thinking of ya even though im halfway around the world! hahaha.....then tomorrow is Ahia Herbert's Bday, and Xandra's bday and the audition! soo much stuff! herm... still gotta finish my religion assignment with meggie! heehee.. herm.. today i vowed to go on an official diet! no more stupid food for me! its gonna be all healthy! i really need to get in shape again! daddy leaves for london tomorrow! yay! finally gonna get my anya hindmarch bag!!!!! haahaa.. hope he chooses a good design! meh.. last week of school till march break!!!
g2 booked for March 22!!!!!!!
wants: lululemon yoga pants, mtv empowerment dvd
9:32 PM
Wednesday, March 03, 2004
yay! passed my quicksilver today! whopee! the first of my gold dances! hahaha.. i hate my blue dress... its sooo incredibly itchy! meh.. what a useless day.. didn't do squat! nothing in the first three classes, and nothing in the last two classes.... chapel was fun.. hahaha.. having to squish into the bench with chris, sammo, and drii was funny itself.. then the music council did a really funny rendition of hey ya!! herm..... I had my first piano lesson with a new teacher.. man is he good... skating test too... OMG! i heard my music for my long program today!!! IT"S SOOO NICE!!!! its from Les Mis and its sooo good.. exactly how I wanted it.. overall.. its a useless day... really really really useless....
Wants: anya hindmarch bag, streetside polish sausage, lacoste sweater and pink kitten heels.
9:49 PM
Tuesday, March 02, 2004
wahaha... boring day... i was dead this morning.. nothing special....... afternoon was equally boring and more confusing coz i don't get the math stuff at all.... this frustrates me.. skating was normal... double axel slowly getting better.. other than that.. nothing special happened.... just a ho-hum day in my ho-hum life............
10:11 PM
Monday, March 01, 2004
Wow.. i said i won't slack off and I slacked off again!!! im at school now and its almost 6 pm!!! i think I spend too much time in school... doing YEARBOOK! GO YEARBOOK PRIDE!!! and drii drii and go soo are beside me reading everything I type... NEW RESOLUTION!!! I'm not going to be hyper for a WHOLE MONTH!!!!! and if i do, i owe drii and arthur 20 bucks!!! i think I can make it! hahahahahaha.. herm.. fun weekend!!! well, on friday, Lemuel and WIlling came over for dinner.. again.. then saturday, paully came over and we went shopping on bloor st with lemuel and willing... again!!! crazy! I WANT EVERYTHING!!!! im craving those pink tna pants and that pink halter tna top.. herm... plus I want the diane von furtensburg purse, and the stila body mousse! smelled sooo good!!!! herm.. then paully slept over and we spent like an hour and a half at the pool just gossiping! not even swimming!!! heehee....
ok.. that got cut short... miss ng told me to do the letters for ads so i stopped blogging.. now its midnight.. oh so many hours later... and i finally finished my anthro isp!! all done... well... paully and I just watch tv later on... on sunday, i went to church, then lemuel and willing came again.. for dinner.... sooo much fun! and we watched the oscars! then they left early! hahahahahahaha..ugh.. im exhausted.... too much work! not enough time!!!!!
i find that many little things piss me off a lot now.... just minor things that lead up to bigger things.. i think i've been like that for awhile now.. im learning to take offense at stuff directed to me...i feel like i crave soo many things in life as well... as if a big chunk of me is missing... my destiny, what im intend to be in the future... once i find it, then i'll be completely satisfied...
wants : diane von furtensburg bag, burberry pink bag, tna pink pants, tna pink top, pink stilettos, coach letter wristlet.....
5:49 PM