Thursday, June 29, 2006
I am careful not to confuse excellence with perfection.
Excellence, I can reach for;
Perfection, is God's business.
Michael J. Fox
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The weather is dismal. Its the kind of weather where you just want to curl up in your bed with a good book and hot chocolate. And that my friends is exactly what I am going to do tonight.
2:56 PM
Sunday, June 18, 2006
i feel like im losing the one that I love most. over what? my inhibited consciousness? my overwhelming insecuredness that i can't seem to get over? getting my life back is a lot harder than i could ever imagine and its taking a toll on me and him. sometimes i feel like we can't even recover. then what? is it over? all that... over? i refuse to accept it.. but sometimes reality hits me like a punch in the face. and the truth of the matter is, i don't think im ready for it. even though it will inevitably happen.
5:33 PM
Friday, June 16, 2006
jodi (my boss): i don't understand why [insert name] is on tv. honestly? i don't understand why they put ugly people on tv!
later...
jodi: honestly, the world would be so much better if they just let me run it!
LOL!!!
4:22 PM
Thursday, June 15, 2006
so this is what im doing at work!!!
we're making gift bags for the residents at the prestigious SOHO MET hotel downtown! so all these people get black gifts bags with "conceirgeandthecity" on them. Inside are the hottest things including:
- restylane (the new botox)
- 4 luxury magazines (that we got for free, one with Wentworth Miller on the cover)
- plastic surgeon's cd
- lip balm
- a flower vase
- a week membership to diesel fitness
- personal training sessions
- chocolate dipped spoon for a catering service
- a dog leash for a dog walking service
- one week free cleaning services
- spiritual wellness centre fortune cookie
- membership to luxury tranportation like yachts, limos and planes
and tons of other cool stuff!!!
although back breaking work with the stuffing and decorating, this is going to be the biggest thing ever! PLus, we're riding into the SOHO with 2 stretch navigator limos and 2 male models to walk the bags in during the busiest time of the day. HOW HOT IS THAT!!! LOL...
and we didn't have to spend a dime. Instead we're getting money for it! this is cool :D
4:06 PM
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
i think im addicted to coffee.. 11:30 am and already two cups. I've gone pee like 5 times in the past two hours! but I LOVE IT!! doesn't help that everyone around me loves it too.
i love my work now! its fun! definitley a field that I want to get into someday.
11:38 AM
Sunday, June 11, 2006
Funny how God works. i pray for serenity, i pray for inner peace. Instead of praying for my personal happiness, I pray for those around me. And He could not make it clearer. My life is getting stronger, and i feel my confidence returning. I smile, I laugh and I enjoy my friends just like I used to. New and old. Only one thing hindering me but this is the one thing that is hardest to let go. And those that I did choose to let go, somehow manage to come back to me.
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I know I can't ask for much, but just to hear your voice brings me back to life.
5:58 PM
Friday, June 09, 2006
I got this from my cousin melody:
[X] I know how to make a pot of coffee
[X] I do my own laundry
[X] I can cook for myself
[ ] I do my chores after being told once
[ ] I always do my homework/work
[X] I actually enjoy intellectual conversations
[X] I think politics are exciting
[ ] My parents and grand-parents have better things to say than my peers
total: 5
[ ] I show up for school/work every day unless I'm sick
[X] I always carry a pen in my pocket/purse
[x] I've never gotten a ticket
[ ] I watch talk shows and point out the incredibility of it all
[ ] I know what incredibility means without looking it up
[ ] I drink black coffee
total: 2
[ ] I know how to run the dish washer..and/or do the dishes
[x] I can count in more than one language
[ ] When I say I'm going to do something, I do it.
[ ] I mow the lawn
[ ] I wash my car
[ ] I can make adults laugh..without being stupid
[ ] I remember to water my plants (once a week)
[ ] I study when I have to
[ ] I pay attention at school/work
[ ] I remember to feed my pets
[X] I'm generally organized
[ ] I know the meaning of cruel punishment from experience
total: 2
[X] I can spell experience without looking at the line above
[X] I clean up my own messes
[x] The first thing I do when I wake up is get coffee
[ ] I can go to the store with out getting something I don't need
[ ] I understand jokes the first time they are said
[X] I listen to my parents/elders
[X] I can type fast, because I type every day
total: 5
[X] My choice in clothing is acceptable in an office or something like that
[ ] I can watch politics and laugh
[X] I have realized that the weather forecast changes every hour
[x] I can look at someone hot and not think of sex
[ ] I have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job
[X] I can read a book and actually finish it
[X] People have said that I act older than I am
[ ] I can be sent on an errand and not get side tracked
total: 5
Count up your 'x's, count up your marks, and then post "I act like I'm __."
Total X's: 20
I act like I'm 20. CLose enough!
10:08 PM
Suddenly its so hard. Just hard. an unyielding relationship reinforced by sand, not solid ground. A luminous time ahead is not within perspective.
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sorry but this definitely made my day:
Miss Ng: You're a Stinker!
1:26 PM
now this made my day
I HAVENT TALKED TO U FOR SO LONG AND U NEVER TELL ME ANYTHING SO THATS WHY I AM SO LOST WITH WHATEVER IS GOING ON WITH UUUUUUUUUUUUU =P=P=P hahah ok i feel better now :Dah bun bun. You make me laugh.....
12:04 PM
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
i am weak. i am challenged. i am torn. and I don't know what to do or what I can do but to seek God's strength now.
for a mere second, I caught a glimpse of what my life would be down a different path. and it was amiable. a path with value, principle, and trust. The three things that I am deficient of. Honesty and sincerity rather than deception and doubt. Makes me really question the candor of my current state.
tomorrow is one year. not exactly the appropriate time to be holding back. and it is much harder than I could ever have imagined.
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- all it takes is a killer hand -
9:36 AM
Sunday, June 04, 2006
United Airlines deserves to be bankruptcustome service stinks, considerations are not taken and the planes suck. Enough said.
Didn't realize how much colder Toronto is compared to Cancun. Didn't realize it was that hot until I came home!! LOL.. but oh how it's good to be home. I can hear my bed calling my name already.
oh tracy.. I love you and your analogies. I will try to choose the "best" house but right now, its really hard. I'm tempted, I'm challenged. Only time will tell I guess.
7:56 PM
Saturday, June 03, 2006
so my "grisly" vacation has come to a close. Surprisingly it wasn't as bad as i imagined it to be. The weather was gorgeously scalding and humid resulting in a decent tan (bear in mind, i am naturally fair so any tan is acceptable). The water was clear and the resort wasn't that bad. Actually, I had quite a pleasant time minus the annoying uncles and aunts. Quality time was spent with my parents and I was able to spend a lot of time alone, gazing at the beach just thinking/sunbathing/reading. I found out a lot more about my family and I realized that they can be interesting because they all backstab each other and secretly hate each other. Watching as a spectator is quite amusing and it did make the days go by faster. My cellphone has offered me peace as I was able to proceed through the day with much ease knowing that there were people anxious for my return. naw, just kidding. But knowing that there was always someone i could rant to did help. I did manage to accomplish one of my life goals, and that is to be able to wear a bikini for the whole day without embarassment! LOL... so some highlights from this so called vacation:
- swimming with dolphins!
- snorkeling in a cenote cave, seeing gorgeous and colourful fish
- finally being able to bargain better than the adults
- unlimited drinks!!
- water water EVERYWHERE!
- sea trek! walking on the sea bottom
11:57 AM