Thursday, August 12, 2004
the moving on process is quite successful! hehe.. thanks for whoever was there for me in my time of need... anyways... came home from yearbook camp last night... now that was an experience to remember... it started off pretty bad but i think i was alright by the time we left.. it was a nipissing university and now i can officially say that i am not going to apply there whatsoever... didn't learn much there.. andrea got sick so i watched her sleep for one afternoon.. hehe.. didn't win anything so overall it was quite disappointing.. anyways...
Im leaving tonight.. at 8 for the philippines... quite anxious coz last time I was there was exactly a year ago and a whole lot of stuff has happened since to me and my friends.. Im scared that we drifted a lot and we wouldn't know each other anymore... I hope that's not the case since friendships that tight usually last forever.. Im excited to see my Dad too... I miss him loads...
Today was Kay Sin's last day with us. She slept over last night with my mom and we spent the whole day with her just taking her places... She is honestly the best little girl I have ever met and man... its not going to be the same without her.. My mom is going to be a wreck.. I don't think I have ever seen my mom cry that much before and when kay sin left, my mom was a wreck.. I myself cried as well... I hope my mom would be okay...
Can't wait to leave now... I really need to get away from a whole lot of things and start off fresh in school... Alot of stuff got me really stressed and really down this summer and it hasn't been a fun one... Too much things to deal with and to get away from it all and just relax would be very uplifting right now... Gives me time to think about what Im going to do about stuff... Honestly, Im really scared about the future... Im scared of what's going to happen to my skating career and where Im heading to this year in skating, Im scared of school and what may happen this year, Im scared of my mom and the stuff she's dealing with now, I want to be there for her but sometimes I just can't and because of that, we've been drifting apart and I don't want that, Im scared of life in general... right now.. im just feeling a little insecure about things... too much things to think about and not too much time to deal with it... God, please help me direct my life...
anyways... Im off... Ill see you guys when I get back.. I might occasionally blog if I have internet at home...Ill miss you guys.. see ya in september....
MUAH
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