Thursday, September 23, 2004

I have actually never been in this state of turmoil before.. never had this much stuff hidden in me. I have never had soo much stress in my life and so much stuff i had to deal with. I had everything bottle up in me that I guess it just exploded! yesterday was one tough day at school. I guess sometime or another it all had to come out.. It was easy to just put on a stupid face and be happy but I guess sometimes that can't conceal what you're going through. No matter how hard you try to hide things and keep them away from the world, eventually it will all come out. Through this though, I learned how many people actually care for me. I learned that I had so many people behind my back, some that I didn't even know cared for me. I've learned that so many people were there and I had no reason to hide. They would be there whenever i needed someone to rant to. Through this, I have had some realization of where I'm going, what I'm doing, what I need to do, and who I can depend on. I guess I need, like brii said, time for myself.. Just time to realize what I want and what I need to do...

Thanks for whoever was there for me, you know who you are... You are God's angels sent to me.

failed my test today... and I don't care...

No more tests and competition anymore...

8:17 PM