Tuesday, December 07, 2004
Why do I constantly have this anxious feeling in me? It seems like my mind is subconciously telling my body that there's something either coming up or happening that I don't realize? And everytime I feel this way, my heart keeps pounding so much causing this overwhelming feeling of nervous to shoot up to my heart. I hate this feeling and I seem to be getting it more and more everyday. I guess a lot of things could be worrying me right now like the amount of work that I am constantly putting off, skating struggles with people, the realization of graduation, ouac and univ applications, my future, my mom's new job, others. I guess I'm just overwhelmed with soo many things that its natural to feel nervous about not completing them. I hate this feeling though.. Not even steady breathing, which I normally do at competitions to calm me down, can work this time. My heart just pounds even faster. Please pray...
I'm on fire
When You're near me
I'm on fire
When You speak
And I'm on fire
Burning at these mysteries
rekindle the fire for God
11:31 PM