Saturday, December 11, 2004
YB deadline was not met.. hopefully we can finish by monday so deadline 1 would be done! thursday, we stayd afterschool but no one ended up staying for the whole thing.. last year.. it was through the first deadline that we all bonded because we were all stressed together and we all ate dinner together and we all just got closer within those few hours before the christmas concert. this year, half the class stayed and they all individually went out to get dinner and ditched us and once they finished their page, they left without trying to help others... didn't bond at all and it ended up with me and drii doing nothing coz we can't help their pages anyways since they're being marked on it... WHOOP DEE DOO! anyways...
christmas concert was ok... lotsa talented little dudes so that was awesome.. hehehe.. best part of the night was during the hallelujah chorus when sammo decided he wanted to sing.. In the middle of the prayer, sammo jumped up and over us and ran his way up to the stage and squished in with the guys of bass. it was funny because it was sammo's voice that stood out the most.. ehehe.. very memorable
friday was quite boring... I had a good chat with miss ng during lunch during my accountability time with her. I was able to just release what was on my head and my struggles especially about my trust in God. I told her that i was having a hard time relying on God for Him to do what he wanted in my life and instead i was taking control of my whole life. I told her I was struggling with this since last year and she told me that unfortunately, I will continue to struggle with it for the rest of my life... its a sad thought.. then we talked about various people i wanted to pray for and about the fact that school is ending and frienships are soon going to be heading towards a different direction. She asked me which friends I would sincerely value the most and which ones I would try to keep in touch with and she was surprised with my choices. She said that the friendships she held on to were with the people that she had the most meaningful conversations with, not the superficial friendships and the more I thought aobut it, the more i realize that it's true.
After skating, my mom was on a hyper craze. She bought live crabs but through her haste, she just left them in the sink and left to pick me up. So they were alive and in the sink, untied for a good 4 hours. On the ride back, my mom was like.. the crabs!!! When we get home, they're probably going to be all over the apartment crawling on everything! in the middle of the night, a crab is oging to jump on your bed and snap your toes!!! then we started panicking and thinking of ways a crab could get over the sink including piling on top of each other until one crab got out... very very stupid time. ANyways, we got the apartment and the crabs were dead.
I went on a rebellion against homework last night and decided to do nothinb but watch tv. I watched santa clause 2, OC, north shore, what a girl wants, you got served, two episodes of friends and sex and the city while eating ice cream. I rarely get to do that anymore.
Well, to my spiritual life, I guess God has been telling me the same thing over and over in many different ways. He constantly reminds me that life is short, life is short, and life on earth doesn't matter as much as life with God. He's constantly telling me to give my life to Him because He is always in control anyways. Whatever I do doesn't matter but only what I do to serve God. Its a struggle because i worry about marks too much, I worry about friends, I worry aobut my future instead of letting God handle it. I'm also learning about superficial friends. I realize that most of my friendships now are very superficial and surface. We don't talk deep but rather what goes on around us. I don't have that many frienships that go beneath the surface and I don't have mnay friends that know me as me. I think I need to work on that.
Christmas shopping is almost done! missing (r,t,h,s)
"Never underestimate a parent's ability to mortify their child" - Sandy Cohen
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